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Wow, been a long time hasn't it? heh, figures I make a journal and then never post in it. I've been super busy with family lately, Manda had her wisdom teeth out and she's been such a bitch ever since. And of course Mom's waiting on her hand and foot.
Blah blah eff my life other juvinile rantings ect.
Tonight I finally get to go out though :) :) Jocelyn and I are going to see Footloose. I'm happy I still have Jocelyn <3
She's really my only friend. I've got to get to work finding more freinds here lol.

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“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.”
- Neil Gaiman


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I think I'm starting to get the hang of this tumblr stuff :) new addiction? I'm thinking yes!

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I haven't been able to get onto Pottermore at all today.
This isn't good. I'm busying myself with this wonderful new world that is tumblr, but still I feel my mind slipping into those memories that haunt me.

The anger dissipated long ago. I still hate him, don't get me wrong, and I hate the slut almost as much. But I can't stay angry, it just isn't me.
It's the good memories that haunt me.
I remember as vividly as if it was yesterday, how he held me, how he told me he would always love me. And I lay there and smiled and the world was just so perfect.
I remember that euphoric contentment, remember it so well, and then within a few seconds I'm jolted back to reality and it feels like my heart breaks all over again.

When will I be over this?

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Vine. Unicorn hair. 10 3/4 inches. Hard.


A rant to kick things off.
It wasn't enough that he cheated on me.

Oh, no. That was only the beginning.
When we got into that fight and he slammed the door and I drove off, and I thought it was the last I'd ever see of him...
Well, it wasn't.
Oh how it wasn't.

You see, he left me for some high school girl. Let's call her Carly. I'm crushed, mind you. He was my only boyfriend. He was my first everything. I thought I was gonna marry this guy... I dreamed of the day, I dreamed of our future... I truly believed he meant it when he told me he loved me.

I watched him rip it all apart.

My world was crumbling and burning all around me... I felt like I'd never be happy again... I just couldn't believe he would betray me that way...
Months passed... eventually I started seeing glimpses of light... things were looking up... I even went on a few dates. (Nothing that went anywhere beyond a week or two.) I thought I was starting to get over it.
Then guess who came knocking on my fucking door.
She cheated on him. She cheated on him! The karmic retribution was so delicious, I could have laughed.
Oh wait, I did laugh.
And I slammed that door in his snivelling slimy little face.
God that felt good.
But my joy was short-lived. He got pissed.
Petty little fuck.
I can't believe he did it.
People I'd known for years just....
turned against me for absolutely no reason at all. He's so manipulative. Just so charming and smooth. And they ate it up like the backstabbing idiots they are.

That was two months ago. I took some time away from the internet (and therefore the social network) to cool down. So now I'm starting fresh with my online presence. No more facebook. No more cell phone. No more old livejournal. I don't want any more drama bullshit.

On the day I came back, I got the email that my Pottermore account was ready. My username? NimbusWitch151.

So I made a new lj, and a new tumblr--actually my first--with this username. And already I'm feeling a lot better. Things are looking brighter. And I'm looking forward to start over, meet some new people, maybe make some new friends. (So if you're reading this because I randomly added you, hi :))

And I just found out that I'm in Ravenclaw.
Yep, things are looking up.


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